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An absolute delightful surprise, THANK U schweetoooooooooooooooo 🙂
cake??? no no no no no … not at the mo…will mail u in a bit…
LOVE U jaanie

hugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

~~di~~

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Theres a place
You can run away and hide
Yeah
A form of pain
Girl if only for a while
Life has been
Treating you so wrong
And I dont know if id have been that strong

So let me know baby
If theres anything you want ill be there
Let me know
If i can be the one you run and talk to
You should know
That I admire you for every strength that you have shown
Ill be right where you are

Cos I believe in you
No matter what Im by your side
I believe in you
And everythings gonna be alright
I believe in you
And when it hurts I’ll dry your eyes
Youll make it through
Cos I believe in you

Memories of your past will go with time
And fade away like the marks that own your skin
He never broke
The person that you are
Cos he never got to know the girl within no

So let me know baby
If theres anything you want ill be there
Let me know
If i can be the one you run and talk to
You should know
That I admire you for every strength that you have shown
Ill be right where you are

Cos I believe in you
No matter what Im by your side
I believe in you
And everythings gonna be alright
I believe in you
And when it hurts I’ll dry your eyes
Youll make it through
Cos I believe in you

Oh yeah

He was your cause and your cure
Of your heartache
For he was all that you knew
Ooh
Dont you ever believe that your ever alone
I will be there for you every step of the way

I believe in you
No matter what Ill be by your side
I believe in you
And everythings gonna be alright
I believe in you
And when it hurts I’ll dry your eyes
We can make it through
Cos I believe in you

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I’m tired of trying to sail this
Troubled boat again
Trying hard to find a way
For though blows me all the same
And I’m tired of holding on
When there’s nothing more to gain
I’d rather stand here on the dock
And watch it all just sail away

This sail has no wind
The wind has no sea
The sea has no shore anymore

I’m walking these streets all by myself
I know its my fault, and no one else
And there’s nobody here to save me
I’m walking alone
And if I look lonely, that’s alright
Cause I’m the only one left in my life
And there’s no one to save me
I’m walking alone

In a word that lives in graces
I’m a grain amongst the sand
I never took the time to get to know
The person that i am
And maybe I was just caught up
Up in the race and so I’d run
And i hadn’t even stop
To see the woman that I’ve become
Dont you know

This sail has no wind
The wind has no sea
My sea has no shore anymore

I’m walking these streets all by myself
I know its my fault, and no one else
And there’s nobody here to save me
I’m walking alone
And if I look lonely, that’s alright
Cause I’m the only one left in my life
And there’s no one to save me
I’m walking alone

It ain’t like it’s over, I haven’t thrown it all away
And i won’t just stop living over my own mistakes
And i just needed time for a moment to stand
So that I can just see who it is that I am

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🙁

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‘Losing someone you love…
Losing someone you love a friend or a member of your family is
probably one of the worst experiences of life. It doesn’t matter how
strong you are; nothing can prepare you for the death of a loved one.
When you first hear about what’s happened you’re in denial you can’t
believe that someone you know and love is dead. You can’t bear the
thought of never seeing, hearing or talking to them again. You feel
numb even fearful at the thought. You keep expecting and hoping
against hope to see them somewhere even if it was for a second to say
the things you didn’t say but fate is cruel and you don’t get a
second chance to say sorry, thank you or I love you. When you lose
someone you start to think about your life and how there are so many
things that you say and do that are wrong and a waste of valuable
time. You start to consider questions like am I using my time wisely?
If I die tomorrow will I have said everything I’ve wanted to say to
the people in my life? Have I done everything I should’ve done, did I
prepare well for the after life? Most of the time the answer to these
questions is no because we never think of the prospect of dieing we
never think what if there is no tomorrow. We argue with those closest
to us and don’t forgive them for mistakes. We let our anger take
control of us and say things in the heat of the moment without ever
seriously considering what we are saying. We never take the time to
pray or to offer thanks to our creator for everything he has blessed
us with. We always worry about material things but never consider the
soul the only thing we will be taking with us from this world. We
never satisfy the soul our passport to paradise. We fear losing our
friends and family because we feel such strong love for them but do
they know that? Do we ever take the time to be sentimental or do we
consider feelings as uncool? We never take the time to say those nice
things or to just give a smile to show that we love them. We lead
such fast and busy lives that we don’t have the time to even say
salaam in some cases we don’t think what if the next time I see this
person it’s too late or what if there is no next time?

In conclusion I would like to say that life is too short for
arguments mistakes and waiting for tomorrows that never come. We
should make the most of our lives and say salaam, thank you, sorry
and I love you more often or just give a smile to make someone’s day
because a smile says a lot more than a silence. We should live each
day as our last and live our life so that we are prepared for our
death. We should satisfy our souls and pay as much attention to our
soul as we do to everything else and not get caught up in this fast
and busy world because this is just a journey to our final abode.
Live your life as a good Muslim and ensure that you have secured your
place in paradise. Always remember Allah first thing in the morning
and last thing at night for you never know when you may have to leave
this world and go to the afterlife where excuses are irrelevant,
where you stand before Allah alone and answer’

xxx

Had to copy/paste this again coz for some reason the fonts all weird and I couldnt read the words properly

for someone who loves to express myself through the written form, these days all that comes outa me is

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blankness, I cant really *express** because I am afraid of the raw emotion that will come outa me…

NOTHING can prepare a person when it comes to losing someone, to death

my heart used to do weird aching samersaults when I would hear of a stranger dying, I remember being traumatized when the principle announced the death of this guys (I never knew) dad, random death upsets me and makes me feel great loss
so the magnitude of losing my mum, I still cant FEEL, its lft me in this vault, so tight, so suffocating..

I dnt knw why I found this thread, but the words describes part of what we have been experiencing..

I miss my mother
missing her more than I miss anything else I can think of..
every second, literally every second, I feel my heart breaks into tinier pieces, nothings the same with her gone
she is my rock, my foundation, my strength, and my best friend, my mother, my confidant, my advisor, my everything..
I dont knw if she knew it, but she is the only one I would actually LISTEN to 🙂 even though I always pretended to NOT listen…ugh am not making sense now… alll this nostalgia is getting to me… 🙁

tnx: Tayba, for sharing this, it helps not only when u know people who are going through a similar experience, but also when u are in that situation as well…

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last movie- was final destination 5- it wasnt as grossly bloody as the last 2 but for some reason I was feeling claustrophobic and wanted to puke when the movie was over…

watched patiala house and action replay, loved both
cant even remember the recent bollywood movie I watched, been catching up on movies like
*thanks ma, I am kalam ..etc.. love watching movies that depict indians without the glamour

looking foward to mausam, bodygaurd, raa one

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mum

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reading
my minds to active to concentrate for long periods to something I would prefer reading, besides, when I read, everything I read is read in a way that makes me feel like I am a part of the story… whereas listening to someone relate a novel, would be like back at the lecture halls:)

birthday messages, would u prefer

a: a fb dedication
b: sms or call ?

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summer 2011.. well will have to wait for Nov to answer that one
the best thing abut last summer was taking an adventure trip, trekking through this gorgeous lil mountain and then going out bungee jumping, awesumness

Q:
Whats yr fav flavor icecream?

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oh its fried semolina with crushed almonds and sesame seeds, desicated coconut, sugar, klim milk, creme all rolled into balls and baked for a few mins

very tasty
🙂

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having the cold/flu sux boo, sooo am hoping u feel better soon
take a med lemon or a corenza before u got to bed tonite, am sure it will help alleviate the annoyance of feeling all dreary
much love

[scarface]

You’ve been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it’s taking me so long
To let my doubts go
You’re the only one that I want

I don’t know why I’m scared, I’ve been here before
Every feeling, every word, I’ve imagined it all,
You never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I’m worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I’ve been on your mind
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name,
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you’ll go

I don’t know why I’m scared ’cause I’ve been here before
Every feeling every word, I’ve imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I’m worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody’s perfect, trust me I’ve learnt it)
I know it ain’t easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody’s perfect, trust me I’ve learnt it)
I know it ain’t easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I’m worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come on and give me a chance
To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.

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Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. “Pooh!” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?” “Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw. “I just wanted to be sure of you 🙂 .” ~A.A. Milne

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@amyswan wrote:

The difference between friendship and love is how much you can hurt each other. -Ashleigh Brilliant

ahaaan

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sigh
**young love***

I heard
That you’re settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you’re
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don’t forget me, I beg
“I’ll remember”, you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.

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@**scarface** wrote:

Meg cabot – size 14 is not fat either – was a good read, funny
Sarah Webb – Some kind of Wonderful – hmm the usual romance novel
Aravind Adiga – The White Tiger – loved this one ***BOO, u shud check this one out***
Dean Koontz – Mr Murder- interesting like all Dean Koontz novels
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie –The thing around your neck, Purple Hibiscus, half of the yellow sun-loved it all, def recommend her work
Jeffrey Deaver – The Sleeping Doll-predictable
Chris Roberson –book of secrets-sorta interesting
Stuart Mcbride – Flesh House-my word, if u have a funny tummy for the gruesome, DONT read, appararently its based on true events – people eating people ….I honestly dont look at meat the same way now
Elizabeth Noble- the girl next door, busy reading ( the reading group) -loved both, Theres this book called, the things I want my daughter to know, for some reason on two different occassions, I had picked that book and left it back coz it was just ..well too sentimental for me to even look at, and dats the title only, but weirdly I randomly chose, the girl next door and off handedly bought the reading group by the very same author, so I guess in an odd way its a sign for me to read that first book:) I would recommend her books, reminds me of catherine cookson/jodi picoult
Anna Richards – Little Gods – actually liked this book after a while…interesting
Nicolas Sparks – True Believer- hmmm predictable
Nora Roberts-savor the moment – absolute romance
Erica Spindler – Breakneck – suspense was sorta predictable
Beth Kendrik – Ex’s and Oh’s – was ok
Dean KOONTZ – Relentless- liked
James Patterson- 7th heaven, 8th confession, Mary Mary – loved the first two..read Mary mary twice now
Nafisa Haji – The writing on my forehead (loved it ) lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvved it
Jonathan Kellerman – Confession- not recommended
Ali Smith – Hotel World – reminded me of my mother, for some odd not sure why way
Arundathi Roy – the god of small things- ok so were these sibling playing at incest or am I retardedly jumping to conclusions here, it just didnt keep me attentive enough to understand it.
Isabel Wolff –forget me not

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Some of the books I read recently, I actually took down some of the names suggested here and searched for the books ..found the god of small things a tad bit uncomfortable to digest but I loved loved love the writing on my forehead and the Rohinton Mistry book, except I couldnt find the suggested one, the best readings came from the Amy tan books, I read all( i think every book they had of hers at the lib) and absolutely LOVED IT, it came at the right time for me, losing my mum and reading all these relationship stories ***sigh**
oh I also enjoyed Chimamanda – My WORD, she is an awesome writer, cant get enough of her work, purple hibiscus started of slow and I coudnt bring myself to continue reading it but then it gripped me and I wouldnt leave it until I was done…
I read a few others that were recommended here but cant remember all the names/titles.. have completed the reading group, loved it. I think now am reading this mystery crime novel by Tess Gerritsen, call after midnight..started it this am.. but am more looking forward to James Freys – A million little pieces, I ordered it so waiting ( impatiently for it to be shipped) heard its controversial, was watching snippets of an interview the author had with Oprah so it got my attention.. welll here goes!!!! Two months of literary intake .. a sure way to distract myself from life:)

Rohinton Mistry – Family Matters – loved it
Amy Tan- Saving Fish from drowning, The Bonesetters Daughter, the kitchen god’s wife, the joy luck club – loved all of it
Stephen King – The green Mile – cant believe how gripping this book is, want to watch the movie now
Harlen Coben –The innocent, Hold tight – uhmmmm didnt enjoy as much as I thought I would, predictable
Nora Roberts- Ceremony in Death – actually liked it
Shobaa de’ – Snapshots- was funny and unbelievably realistic
Meg cabot – size 14 is not fat either –
Sarah Webb – Some kind of Wonderful
Aravind Adiga – The White Tiger
Dean Koontz – Mr Murder
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie –The thing around your neck, Purple Hibiscus, half of the yellow sun
Jeffrey Deaver – The Sleeping Doll
Chris Roberson –book of secrets
Stuart Mcbride – Flesh House
Elizabeth Noble- the girl next door, busy reading ( the reading group)
Anna Richards – Little Gods
Nicolas Sparks – True Believer
Nora Roberts-savor the moment
Erica Spindler – Breakneck
Beth Kendrik – Ex’s and Oh’s
Dean KOONTZ – Relentless
James Patterson- 7th heaven, 8th confession, Mary Mary
Nafisa Haji – The writing on my forehead (loved it )
Jonathan Kellerman – Confession
Ali Smith – Hotel World –
Arundathi Roy – the god of small things
Isabel Wolff –forget me not

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@boo wrote:

I have discovered Modern Family and I love it! Aman, since you and I seem to have similar TV tastes, you should totally watch it too! <3

Hey boo

did u get my pm??
link??

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ps: no matter how much I ramble on and on, the poems, every word of it describes how much u being in my life, means to me
love u lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttsss
😀 😀 😀

ok am done now

mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

warmest tightest lovefilled hugs

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I read somewhere
A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out.
thank u for coming into mine and remaining here in my heart 😀
u know how much joy yr shaadi brings me, to know u are so happy and content fulls my soul with warmth and gratitude to N for being such a superb husband to u..

I wont say much, I jst wanted to share this news, your new journey, HERE in our first home, with the people we care about.. *** i did say I was not sending u a proper proper dedication 😈 so will leave u with these two poems just for u my lil sweet darling kavee… I LOVE U
wishing u and N all of the happiness joy and warmth that the union of marriage brings… cant wait to be an aunt **wink wink*** 😈 😈 😀 😀 😀

***di***

A sister is someone who loves you from the heart,
No matter how much you argue you cannot be drawn apart.
She is a joy that cannot be taken away,
Once she enters your life, she is there to stay.

A friend who helps you through difficult times,
Her comforting words are worth much more than dimes.
A partner who fills your life with laughs and smile,
These memories last for miles and miles.

When she is by your side, the world is filled with life,
When she is not around, your days are full of strife.
A sister is a blessing, who fills your heart with love,
She flies with you in life with the beauty of a dove.

A companion to whom you can express your feelings,
She doesn’t let you get bored at family dealings.
Whether you are having your ups or downs,
She always helps you with a smile and never frowns.

With a sister you cannot have a grudge,
She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge.
Having a sister is not just a trend,
It is knowing you can always turn to her, your best friend.

To me you are an angel in disguise.
Full of intuition, intelligent, and wise.
Always giving and helping through
Good times and bad.
You are the best friend I’ve ever had.
If I had one wish it would surely be
To give you as much as you’ve given to me.
Though I’ve put our relationship through some cloudy days,
You’ve been my sunshine in so many ways.
Through trials and tests, right by me
You stood,
And gave me your hand whenever you could.
Thank you so much my sister, my friend
My gratitude for you has no end.

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