[boo]

This time in my day, usually, I am on Facebook… so I thought, for once, (after a status update, of course… ) I'll close the Facebook window and open my Home one…

Coming on this forum (especially nowadays) feels like switching on the T.V. unusually early in the morning and finding and old show you always used to watch, cuddling up with a hot drink and enjoying it and reliving the days of your innocence again… even if you don't watch it as religiously as you used to, you can never ever not love it, you can never ever not feel its warmth, however many days months years have passed. What I'm trying to say is, it's always a welcoming pair of arms, regardless of whether you are in need of them or not.

And if there is one thing the forum has always taught me, it's that evergreen Beatles lyric… a song's lyrics only ever make sense to you if you have 'lived' them… and this forum has been exemplary in making me truly understand what it is we all need. On every level. From the simple warmth of friendship, to love for your beliefs, to love for your soulmate and finally and possibly most importantly, love for your own self.

There's not much more I can say in words of praise for this place… there will never be much more I can say, it is not something that can be trapped into words… you all have more than just felt it, so here's a toast to BWL! A truly random, spontaneous, well-meant toast for this forum that has touched us………. and to its beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, crazy, fun, intelligent, kind, witty people.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Ditto to everything you said daarling.

This place… truly is my home. The people that I call my family here, truly are my family.

Ohana means family. And family means no one gets left behind.

I don't know… to me, home is something you can never let go of. Sure, this forum hasn't just given me joy, there were times when it hurt me to come here, and sometimes, when I think back on everything, pain is definitely a part of my memories. But that's what family does, innit? We fight, we hate each other, we may even want to run away from each other, and for a time, we do run away… but in the end, it's home, it's family. We can hate and love each other at the exact same time. But love… love overpowers hate every single time.

Khushi once said to me, “You mean half my virtual world to me.” And I just want to say that even if I don't come here as often as I used to… in the internet world, this is the only place I can call home and it means more to me than anything else in my virtual world.

My sister and I were watching Dragon Tales the other day (lol yes its a kiddy show, but i love it) and I don't know if you guys have heard of it, but it's about these two siblings, Max and Emmy who find a dragon scale in their attic (I think) and when they say a few magical words, they appear in a different dimension. A world full of dragons (lol) but friendly ones, caring ones, loving ones. Like Narnia i gess. So whatever, back to my point. My sister says, “I wish we had that.” A magical place we can go to and forget our worries for a while. Or SHARE our worries and get love and support in return. A refuge of sorts. And I realized… I did have that. I do have that.

I love this place. I love my family here.

[boo]

See how much this forum is a part of my life?

I bought a VERY cheap, second-hand black and white laser printer off a friend (for like… one fifths, or even less than that of its original price… absolute freaking bargain… Khushi would have been so proud of me! )… and seeing as I couldn't sleep, I decided I might as well install it onto my laptop… and I thought, “Hmm… to test its printing, I have to try something special for the first time…” … and OK fine fine fineee yes the first thing I printed was something he wrote (… leave a girl alone, OK?! )… but I knew I couldn't show that to people who wanted to see how well my printer was working (and it works a DREAM… I love it!!), and so I decided to print out Tujhe Dekha To Yeh Jaana Sanam lyrics (ha ha ha yes… that has 'him' in it too but stilllll… )…. from no other than my beloved BWL website… I printed out the full thing, without trying to minimise the number of pages or copying and pasting onto a word document or anything… just the whole thing… as I used to collect Hindi song lyrics and translations from this website and put them all into a small purple file (for those of you who remember this story… lol)…

I guess I needed this forum's…. aura… 'blessings', if you like…

LOL… most people would want a God of some form or other for blessings… and whom do I choose but my own God (him) and BWL… LOL… sigh.

I love it. I love you guys. Mad people.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

LMAO PAGAL! You are truly adorable, you know that? I really could see you printing out something he wrote before anyone else! Meri pagli, come here

Yes, I remember the story.

We love you too, madder person.

[boo]

Huh? What story?

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Quote:

as I used to collect Hindi song lyrics and translations from this website and put them all into a small purple file (for those of you who remember this story… lol)…

Slow.

[boo]

Shut uppppp…. At least I am not faltoo enough to go back and read everything I've written, just to find that quote, quote it, bold it and tell me I'm slow!

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

I never said I wasn't faltoo! I'll take the blame, guilty as charged ma'am!

and I didn't have to re-read it all, it was pretty easy to find, quote, bold, and post.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

lol I wanna give this another try:

*ahem* Anything for you, my love…

[boo]

???

You are SO random.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

And your point is?!?!?!

[boo]

That you are so random.

Duh.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

LOL What's it to you!

[kavita_0026]

watching you guys go at it

is fun

lol

[boo]

You're my twin, and I got a reputation to protect b*tch… Much as Oreo will disagree….

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Okay so… I don't follow?

Damn! I always gotta lose to my slowness!

[boo]

Have you met our dear “Slow Joe” Sapno? I can't remember if she was here when you were here! But you could have given her a run for her money…

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

LMAO I did meet her! and you just took it away from me in the other thread! LMAO NUTCASE!

[boo]

……… you had the perfect opportunity to call ME slow there and you missed out. Too bad.

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Imma choke you today.

[boo]

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

I LET you win all the fights today.

[serioComic]

boogedy, pls bring back slow joe sapno so that we can compare who is slower. showdown of the Queen of Slowness – Slow Joe Sapno vs Rani Is the Bes 'Snail'

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Oye! I'm not signed up for no contest!

[Unique_Princess]

lol… slow joe sapno the tubelight… with no spaces between her punctuation… haha…. memories.

[boo]

lmbo! why don't i remember this whole no punctuation thing huh?

ahhh is anyone here in contact with her? :/ she got married right… and had a kid… :/ ?

[kavita_0026]

Um, who are you guys talking about?

[Unique_Princess]

A ghost from the past, Kavi…

How are you?

[boo]

Ghost from the past… hahahahahahaha! <3

[kavita_0026]

Quote:

A ghost from the past, Kavi…

How are you?

A bhoot from the past ?

Im okay jaanu, miss you. How have you been?

[serioComic]

You put a knife in my back
Shot an arrow in me!
Tell me are you the ghost of jealousy
The ghost of jealousy

[boo]

Uhm…. what?

[serioComic]

Quote:

Uhm…. what?

oh noooo!! dont tell me u've been bitten by the slow bug too?

[boo]

If anyone's slow here, it's you Mr. Big Geeky Reading Glasses…. 😀 Let me know when you've finished reading this. 😀

[boo]

Saturday evening, I was really upset over a very small thing and as
UP told me, those tears that wouldn’t stop flowing all evening were
probably looking for an excuse to escape, and they found one somehow or
the other…
I was sitting on my bed, laptop in front of me,
absent-mindedly clicking things on Facebook… I wasn’t even noticing
what I was doing… and I simply could not stop crying. Everything
simply got on top of me and frustrated me. It felt as though everything
was going (and, in all honesty, it STILL feels like everything’s gone
wrong… ) wrong and I could not stop crying. I had a MASSIVE (no I am
not even kidding you, it is a MASSIVE one… around a good 25-30 cm by
at least a 12 – 15 cm) chocolate bar next to me, and I simply sat there
eating that, in the dark, crying. All by myself. (I only ate just under
half of it, you might be glad to know, in the end…)
Then, out
of the blue, a cousin of a friend whom I had never met (she lived on
the other side of the world) sent me a random message for the first
time on Facebook chat – asking me how I was and sending me some love.
We added each other upon the recommendation of my friend and her
cousin, she said we were both a lot like each other in the sense that
both of us were obsessed with and breathed for love and appreciated
beauty and all that poetic ***. 🙂 I had her as a Facebook friend for
around 2, maybe even 3 years actually and I occasionally Facebook
stalked her and commented on certain of her pictures and poems because
they reflected my tastes so well… but I never saw it as anything
beyond that. You know, she was one of those Facebook friends you add on
because you ‘have’ to and then you can’t remove because you know both
of you will notice… in any case, I didn’t mind her knowing about my
life so I didn’t care either way, really.
Of late, we have been commenting on love and beauty on each
other’s statuses a lot more than we usually used to (we’d happily go
months not acknowledging each other’s presence)… and I suppose that
was why she messaged me that evening so innocently, sending me love as
only she can… and I was feeling so vulnerable and I needed someone
fresh and new to talk to (strange how one can find ‘fresh’ and ‘new’ in
an acquaintance that has been a silent spectator for the past couple or
so years…!) and tears were in steady flow, that I couldn’t help but
smile at her message… and we got talking. I shared my life, she
shared hers. I needed a voice to listen and she listened beautifully.
She understands me ‘at the core’ because we are both similar
personalities… you know how when you meet someone and you know they
would make the same decisions you would because both your priorities
lie in the same place? It was like that – a mutual understand, a
well-yes-of-course-you-would-do-that sort of acknowledgement and being
there… and since I was feeling so helpless, I poured nearly all my
troubles out to her (I’m sure it’s not really hard to guess that to
know more of my further troubles requires one to get to know me a
little bit more at first!! Sigh…!)… and she was such a darling
about it. She’s not in the field I am in, but her husband is and she
recommended that I add him on because he will probably have more to say
on the subject than she would… so I consented and he added me on
(both husband and wife were online at the same time… sweet, no?)…
All
I can say about this guy is he is an older, male version of me… minus
the whole spirituality thing which I never really got (I am far, far
too much a
believe-in-the-tangible-and-accept-and-understand-everything-it-has-to-offer-before-contemplating-the-untangible
person… as you may also well know!!)… he was so wonderful in
talking to me. He shared his life with me too, and I shared my miseries
and woes with him. I cannot describe how incredibly good it felt, to
speak to someone new who unders

[vchenoah]

*big ole cyber hug*

I wish more people knew crying is an acceptable form of release and, in affect, therapudic! Crying has brought me to this forum on occassion and was what sent me away. Feelings, be them real or imagined, are something truly powerful.

Boo, your 'musings' have never been without their merit! You've said things I, personally, didn't have the intestinal fortitude to convey. They have also confirmed or re-affirmed a deep seated feeling. Thank you for them. You are a beautifully artistic and sensitive woman. Don't know why it has taken 4 years for me to convey that to you. My apologies and compliments. I'd like to share something my husband wrote. It's something I believe with my whole heart.:

“Contact; either familial or social
is one of the greatest of things
that you may obtain.
As contact, whether for loving or re-affirmation,
is one of the greatest of all shared experiences.” (yeah, he's something lol)

I haven't much more to say here, but something you wrote made me cry and smile at the same time. (which is why I signed in) I'd like to quote it here, please.

Quote:

The sudden burst of warmth I found in them reminded me so, so, so, so much of the forum… where people from the most polarly opposite walks of life meet and find shelter for their minds… a chance to play. 🙂 We are at the stage where we are still in awe of each other's company… I remember so vividly being so in awe of the company I was in, with the forum… and it makes me think, if those very people whose company I was touched, blessed, honoured and in awe of, have left “so soon” (I mean, what is “soon”, anyway?)… it all seems such a waste and so crazy. And those that have “left” may never have “left”, really.

I want this forum to be alive and kicking butt for as long as we are all alive. That is my frank and honest dream and I am praying to all the Powers That Be that by saying this I don't jinx it! 😛 *touchwood*… I want to believe that we are all crazy enough to hold onto to sentiments for the sake of being crazy. For the sake of knowing that we are crazy, we do crazy, and we love crazy – nothing else. No other part of your life needs to be as crazy for this to be so crazy in your life – the practicalities that this is an online forum and we all have access to privacy and internet most of the time touchwood, means that we can afford to be crazy.

Whether we will or not, let's see. What does it matter at the end of the day… the feelings and memories and magic of this forum shall always remain within those who felt it… and it is my honest feeling and belief that those who truly felt it never really leave. If something's a part of your life, you don't leave it unless you get closure. Even if we lose interest, we all at some point or the other cross paths with Nostalgia Lane…

So very welll said! Thank you for it.

Thank you all for the part you've played on the tiny stage that is my life. I appreciate you all more than you know.

[boo]

*big ole cyber hug back*

I'm sorry that the tears you shed for this forum were also there when leaving, Nessa ji. That sucks.

Thank
you for your apologies and compliments. There was no need for the
former and every need for the latter. haha! 🙂 I'm actually touched
that something I wrote and thought is even worthy of such emotions…

Mr. Nessa is so very right. What else is this forum if not contact?

I appreciate you too, Nessa. Plenty much.

[thomas520]

yeah,every need love ,include me !

[vchenoah]

This was quite the read!!! lmbo
Feeling quite loverly today, so I’m goona show it!

Where is you at, love of my life 99?????? 😛

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

@vchenoah wrote:

This was quite the read!!! lmbo
Feeling quite loverly today, so I’m goona show it!

Where is you at, love of my life 99?????? 😛

I’ve been here all along, my beautiful. <3 I can't sleep, though. And it sucks. =( I even tried counting sheep, it no no work.

[boo]

Hi Rani, how are u? 🙂 Lovely sig!

[vchenoah]

@RaNi iS ThE BeS wrote:

@vchenoah wrote:

This was quite the read!!! lmbo
Feeling quite loverly today, so I’m goona show it!

Where is you at, love of my life 99?????? 😛

I’ve been here all along, my beautiful. <3 I can't sleep, though. And it sucks. =( I even tried counting sheep, it no no work.

I knew you weren’t far from me my heart! *big squeeze*
ily billy! 😉

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

@vchenoah wrote:

@RaNi iS ThE BeS wrote:

@vchenoah wrote:

This was quite the read!!! lmbo
Feeling quite loverly today, so I’m goona show it!

Where is you at, love of my life 99?????? 😛

I’ve been here all along, my beautiful. <3 I can't sleep, though. And it sucks. =( I even tried counting sheep, it no no work.

I knew you weren’t far from me my heart! *big squeeze*
ily billy! 😉

I’m never far from you, sweetheart. *smishes you!* LOL ily billy too! <3 I'm so excited to call you tomorrow, inshaAllah!

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Boo, hi. =) I’m good, aH. How are you? Thank you, I love the lyrics and the picture, so put ’em together. =)

[boo]

It looks totally neat. 🙂 This song came on on shuffle in my car just today. I had forgotten how powerful this song is, pity they don’t make songs like this any more!! Instead we get stupid I’m-too-sexy-for-you songs. 🙁

I’m OK. Just pulling my hair out, but all is good. =]

[RaNi iS ThE BeS]

Thank you. =) The song IS powerful, and beautiful. =) Aww! You’re talking about Sheila Ki Jawaani! I LOVE that song! Part of the reason I watched the movie was cuz of Katrina and this song (yeah, I’m being a total guy, here – but hey)! Sometimes it’s good to just have some fun songs. And the lyrics are actually interesting if you listen. =)

But they still do make powerful songs. A few I remember off the top of my head are:
–Dil Ibaadat from Tum Mile (Possibly my most favorite song ever – it’s beautiful beyond belief.)
–Kahin Toh from Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na (Another personal favorite)

… Okay, so that’s all I can think of – but I promise there are more- I just have a crappy memory, I’ll write ’em down when I think of them. =)

Pulling your hair out doesn’t sound like all is good, but I hope it get’s better for you, iA. Just mind the hair, it’s pretty innocent. =)

[vchenoah]

LOVE (just wanted to say it)

[boo]

LOL Nessa incidentally, I saw – oh so beautifully random! – graffiti on a wall today. It’s new because I have never seen it before and that wall definitely has no other graffiti on it. And all it had was, in white: LOVE

Awesome no, I took a picture and sent it to Unique and she was like, “Um. You probably did that. “

[vchenoah]

You should convert it and post here. It would lift spirits and make one smile like this

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